Who am I Really?

If you know me, you probably see me as happy-go-lucky, not much bothering me, not much worrying me, cool as a cucumber. But if you could be inside my head, you would see that that's not it at all.
I do worry, things do bother me, I struggle with deppressive thoughts every day.

So who am I really? Am I truly a joyful person, just down at times, or am I truly deppressive, but break out of it when I am out and about, away from my troubles? This is what I'm contemplating right now. Who is the real me? Am I in denial about the problems I have? Am I not facing up to what's really going on? Do I only look like I have things together, or do I really have things together, just lack the confidence to admit that? Questions, questions, questions.

I may not know these answers, but God does, and thankfully I can talk to Him any time I want, for free.
Jeremiah 33:3 says "Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know." So that is my prayer for me, for you. That we realize we can be joyful as we "Call on God for wisdom, not depending on ourselves alone."

Hopefully joyfully yours,
Jenn